But I don't see Him. . .

Read: Job 23

Have you ever known God was with you – known that God was in control – known that God is working all thing for your good – known all these things, and yet when you go to look for God, you can’t see Him?

In my reading of Job, I found he expresses those exact sentiments:

“But if I go to the east, he is not there; if I go to the west, I do not find him. When he is at work in the north, I do not see him; when he turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of him. (Job 23:8-9)

I felt that way when my mom passed away. I felt that way when my dad passed away. I felt that way when I got the call from my doctor with an “It’s cancer.” I felt that way when my husband lost his job. As I read those verse, my heart could only think – Oh, Job, I’ve felt that way too!!

But the key is in the next verse:

But He knows the way that I take: when He has tried me, I shall come out as gold. (Job 23:10)

It’s almost as if Job is saying I don’t see Him – but He sees me. . .

I felt that assurance when I realized in God’s perfect timing, my mom had been alive to see me marry a man who would truly love me and care for me. I felt that assurance when I stood alone by the casket at my dad’s funeral – alone, but surrounded by so many prayers and so much support. I felt that assurance when Steve and I had our first meeting with my cancer surgeon and her professionalism and ready smile put us both at ease. If I felt that assuranceall those times, what would make the loss of Steve’s job any different?

Sure, I can say But I don’t see Him! When in reality it doesn’t mater if I can see Him, because no matter what – He sees me!

Dear Lord,

Thank you for being my El Roi – the God who sees me!